results.

the results of last semester's horrendous semester was emailed to me at 140am. i accidentally woke up from my sleep at 100am. my eyes were wide open the whole time though i was dead tired. i can't wait to see my results, i just can't. so i waited, and waited. then i decided to go back to bed when it was 130am then i got on my twitter and saw one of my friends' tweet. she said she could see hers. so i went to check for mine in my email.

i got mine too. at 140am.

so i frantically opened my email using my my mummy's already lagging broadband. i waited patiently for the email to load. then, it opened. then i scrolled down the email and looked at my pointer. i almost wanted to scream and burst out crying in happiness, agony and sadness.

the results were not as good as last semester's but it's nothing to be sad about really. i maintained my DL and last semester was one fucked up semester with all the dramas that happened it was really indeed a miracle really for me to get what i got. 

i'm thankful. really i am. the results showed more than just numbers. they showed me that i can indeed survive in the harshest of living conditions and environments and situations. i really thought i was not gonna get any DL this semester but i did. Alhamdulillah. 

the emotional and physical turmoil i went through last semester was bad, really, really bad. the amount of things that i went through last semester. blerkh. i don't really want to go there. not that there weren't any good moments in sem 4. there were but the bad times kinda triumphed over them you know. well, for me at least. i kept thinking about you during the whole time and i cried at night and i feel lonely and shit. yeah, lame semester.

i just hope semester 5 would be a better semester, overall.

p.s: hoping and wishing.