i know and i don't know.

i know where i want my life to be. i know where i want myself to be in the years to come. it's all planned, mapped out in my head like some kind of an elaborate plan to overthrow a government that isn't functioning. i know where i want to take myself. i see the people around me. i know which one i should be and which one i shouldn't be.

i don't wanna be stuck without being able to see the world. we live only once, why waste the chance?

i know where i want to go. i know how i want to lead my life. i know what type of people i want to surround myself with. i know these things. these things are the things i have been wanting all my life. do you know how much it hurts to see others doing what you have been wanting to do all your life so effortlessly? 

and here i am, living, not so effortlessly.

i have to be thankful though. at least i know, for now, i am going somewhere with my life. my feet and effort have not taken me as far as the other side of the world, but it has taken me to the other side of the country, the other side of the ocean. that's something to be proud of for me. for in a million years, would i have foreseen myself living the way i have been living thus far. 

i have my share of ups and downs, happiness and sadness. but it's all part of life right?

i know where i want to go, i know where i want to be, i know who i want to be. i know.

the only thing i don't know is the future. uncertainty is a killer. assumptions are asses. time is a master. those are the only things i don't know. what i know, i know. what i  don't, i don't.

i'm looking forward to what life throws at me. i'm not sure if i can handle all of them, but i guess, we'll have to wait and see. i know my limits, i know. i know.

life. the thing i know and don't know.

p.s: i've no idea.