girly girl.

i like you. i really, really like you. i like you since the first day i saw you. i thought you were cute. now, you're beautiful, even more beautiful than the rarest flowers, or the brightest stars. when you smile, your eyes sparkle. like, really sparkle. they shine brighter than the sun. i should tell you that about you but i'm too scared and shy to say so. i love it when you smile. i love it even more when you smile at me. my heart skips a whole lot of beats when you smile at me. my stomach has butterflies every time you come near me or when you smile at me. no, not butterflies, more like garudas. you can make me go crazy you know? that smile. i have never seen anything more perfect than your smile. with that red shade of lipstick that you always use, you make me want to kiss you- badly. i am crazy about you. i am.

God. you're beautiful. even when you dress simply (which you rarely do) you still look beautiful. i like the way you flirt with me. i really do. i like it when you laugh when i try horribly at flirting with you. i want you. i want you to be mine. can i be yours, and you be mine? you're fair skin, those cheeks, and your fingers. can i entwine my fingers with yours? can we walk, hand-in-hand? i want you to rest your head on my shoulder while we watch a movie together. i want you to hold my hand too. i want to be able to call you mine, like the Taylor Swift song you know? "you are the best thing that's ever been mine," yeah, that's you. i want you to be mine.

am i crazy for feeling this way? yeah maybe. but only you can make me feel this way. just the sight of you can make me smile. when you talk to me in that flirty, slow voice of yours, and the way you look at me, i feel like the whole world stops and there's only me and you. only me and you. i think i'm the only one who feels this way. i wish you'd feel the same way. maybe you do. maybe you do? or maybe you're like me, too scared to admit for fear of losing something beautiful that we've been sharing together for years now. years. God. you've driven me crazy for years. i let you. i let you drive me crazy because i like you. i like the way you make me feel. happy and tormented. i want to protect you from harm. i want you to call me with sweet names like: honey, baby, boo, sweetheart, sayang. my name sounds so much sweeter when you say it. you drive me insane you know that? no you don't. you do not know. i'm too scared to let you know how i feel. if i do, i might lose you. i might not see you again. i might not see your beautiful face, your gorgeous smile. everything.

i could write a lot more about you, and the way you make me feel. i could cover the whole world with words of love and romance and still they won't match the intensity of feelings i have towards and for you. you render me speechless with your beauty sometimes and yet here i am, my mind spewing words of... of feelings? of emotions? of love? love. 

i just want you. only you.

p.s: this is crazy