thoughtless

i haven't been writing for a while. what i mean is, i haven't been writing in full sentences like what i'm doing now. it's scary for me when i can't fit my thoughts into complete sentences. my mind's been all over the place and i haven't been thinking about things that inspire me or make me think. all i can say is so far, i think my focus has been all over the place and sometimes it's there, sometimes it is not. 

i get envious of people who can write their thoughts down and display them beautifully as sentences. i can't do that. i want to, but as much as i want to try, i haven't been successful. i haven't been. all i get are jumbled words in jumbled thoughts and when i try to write them down they evaporate into thin air. they really do.

and when i think of something worthy of being written down, it too evaporates, disappears. then i am left with nothing to write and i am forced to leave my blog empty, quiet and thoughtless. 

i just need to find my mojo back. i just got to.

p.s: this post is inspired by Haki. she writes beautifully and her thoughts are beautiful too.