i think i'm losing touch with almost everything around me. i'm losing focus, interest and drive. i don't even have a real purpose anymore. i don't know what i am going to end up as. i am lacking writing skills, i'm losing it. i need support.
i look at things around me without thought and less curiosity. i think not as much as i used to. i don't know if it's a good thing really. i am uninspired. i guess, workload's taking a toll on me. i mean, i am concentrating more on what i should be doing as a student and less concentration is given on what i should be thinking and feeling as a human being.
i am disappointed by people around me and i disappoint myself. i keep searching for the old me but i can't seem to find it. it's as if when i got my 'new' self, i misplaced the old me and now i can't find it. it's lost. i might have thrown me away for all i know. now i am facing regret.
i want the old me back. i need the old me back. i miss the old me.
p.s: but i forgot how's the old me like. so how now?
Helo brother. Long time didn;t read yr bloggies ald, because I got uninspired as well lah. But I believe if u just stop and look around, take a deep breath and be thankful for whatever given to u, good or bad, u will feel GREAT and CONTENTED! There are ups and downs in life, so the most important is finding the passion! Do something u like! Live a life! We only live once!
ReplyDeletep/s: If u have forgotten the old self, just forget about that, build a better self :-) Que Sara Sara... What will be will be...
pp/s: Cheer up my friend! If u have FB, add me at pipi4896@hotmail.com lah~ I go onto FB A LOT!!! LOL
thanks for the inspirational words. i will keep them in mind :)
ReplyDeleteit's a phase... you'll get by. but, in the meantime, try to find joy... if there's none, then go out there and have fun! it will pass.
ReplyDeletehaiya, adekah kita writers je yg feel mcm nie? haha..sometimes i wonder~!
take care Ahmad! Don't lose yourself in the process. :D