true love

i was at the nephrology clinic waiting for my turn to see the doctor for my routine checkup. there were a lot of people but as the time slowly ticked away, the room got less crowded. a lady on a wheel-chair was placed near the entrance between the waiting area and the nurse's station. she was old, probably older than 50. she was wearing this bright coloured baju kurung with a tudung to match and a pair of small, oval-shaped spectacles. she had this sad, confused look on her face and an eagerness to be out of the place as soon as possible. 

i couldn't blame her for feeling that way; i wanted to get out of the clinic too. 

i didn't remember who wheeled her in but a man (whom i can only assume, but is pretty sure of as her husband), frail, thin and weak, with somewhat of a concerned face mixed with a bit of anguish and tiredness, accompanied her at the door. he was a small man, with a blue shirt and a black songkok with an unshaved face. i only assumed that they had went in to see the doctor because a couple of minutes after that, the lady and the man were out of the clinic, the old man faithfully pushing the wheelchair out of the place as i looked at them while holding a book at my face to as not be seen too obvious that i was staring at them. 

by the way, the lady had only one leg. 

i was instantly touched. my thoughts jumped into crazy mode and started conjuring questions that i found very difficult to answer. the very first question that came to mind was: will i ever find that one person who'd be there for me when i need him/her? the second question was: will or can i do the same?

in life, you will always have to depend on someone to live. try as you may to be a recluse or a loner: the fact of a matter is, everyone needs someone, or something. it is like a universal, unspoken but knowing rule or something that it is without a doubt a necessity for us to be dependent on something, be it living or non-living. of course though, everyone wants to have someone in their lives: someone who'd be there for them through thick and thin, someone who they can rely on, someone they can trust; someone they can love and cherish. i want that someone too.

in each of us, there will always be this hunger, this void, that can never be fulfilled until love is found, and cherished. i don't know if i have found that one person who will be there for me or i have yet found within me the will to do exactly the same thing but i know i am learning towards there. i have people: family and friends who've shown the tremendous amount and care they have for me that i am very, very thankful to have them in my life.

as the old man and the lady exit the clinic, i can't help but think how lucky they are to have each other. how very, very lucky.

p.s: and true love i believe, is out there.