Lara.

"i feel like i've been betrayed," she said over the phone while tears were streaming down her face. she was sitting on the edge of her bed, her head bowed down. "i can't feel anything anymore. it's like, my heart has numbed the rest of my body parts including my brain. all i could think about is him and his betrayal and even after i've found out, it still irks me at how much i still want to be with him." she said.

"he didn't betray you. he's just being a single guy. you have to stop this Lara, you have to. you have to stop thinking bout him. you have to. he's not worth it anymore Lara. he isn't. you deserve much better than him. please, just tell yourself that."

"but i only want him," she said, sobbing away.

"for now of course you want only him but anything can happen. things change. just remember that. even your feelings for him may disappear. take your time. you'll find someone better or better yet, that someone special will find his way to you. all i can say to you is be patient ok? things are bound to get better. they may seem crappy now but they always become better, they do. like i said, be patient, have faith."

"i hate the fact that now i know the reason for his smiles is not me. that i know he can live without me. he has new people to share his dreams, his hopes and everything with. it hurts me that he doesn't want to even look at me sometimes. it hurts me now that he'd not want to spend alone time with me anymore. it hurts to know that i was the person he'd look for but now, i'm not. i was so important to him and now i am so insignificant."

"things change. get used to your new role. you have to. these things you're feeling are all temporary. they will disappear if you allow yourself to make them disappear. you love him a lot i know, but you can't force feelings down someone else's throat and expect them to feel the same way about you. no. things are always not that simple. look, if he loves you, he'll come back and if things are meant to be you and him will deserve another shot at love but for now, you just have to give yourself space and time. give him space and time. he'll come back to you. he will."

"how would you know?" she asked and she can't help but to feel a little bit of hope escaping from her damaged heart.

"because he loves you too. like i said, he just needs the time and space. things will happen but you have to wait and be patient. live your life. something will happen to him that will make him realize what he's been missing with you and he'll come back."

"but what if the opposite happens" she asked again and lifted her head up a little.

"then it'll make you realize that he's not the one for you and that you will have someone better taking his spot in your heart or at least, pushing him into a corner in your heart. but this will take time time; maybe weeks, months and even years. but this all depends on you. only you have the power to shift things around. take control of your life. he's not your life anymore and that means another burden removed. just think of it that way."

Lara kept quiet hearing that respond.

"look Lara, i can only say so much things to you but you have to do something so that you are able to move on. have faith in yourself. you can do this. this is for your own good. it is. go out, have fun. smile. see people. distract yourself."

"but i...."

"no buts Lara. really. you have to do this. you let go of Jonathan and he let go of you and now you're feeling this way because life wants you to learn something about love: that it hurts like hell and it can make you the happiest person on Earth at the same time. love is also one-sided and just because you're in love with Jonathan doesn't mean he feels the same way. love is fucked up. love is cruel. love is not fair . this is karma for you. you did him wrong and now he's just returning the favour except that it's much worse because, well, because it's karma for you. look, Jonathan has moved on and so should you. he's moved away and so should you. take a different path now Lara. make an escape for yourself. don't get stuck in this rut. it is not charming, attractive or beautiful. it is stupid, pathetic and useless. Jonathan will just be that one guy in your life when you meet the right one. and if you're patient enough, the things Jonathan do will befall upon him as well. that's just how life works sometimes you know. you love him, he doesn't love you. he loves someone else but that someone else doesn't love him. that sorta thing. for now, just think that Jonathan is not the right one for you and you're not the right one for him"

"what if we're right for each other?" Lara asked again, sounding a tad too hopeful.

"then things will fall back into place. like i said, time and space, time and space. stop giving hope to yourself. if you don't want to lose him, be friends with him."

"be friends, right. and i'm in love with him," Lara said while clenching her teeth.

"it hurts i know, but things will become natural. they will. hey i think i'm sleepy. can i go to bed?"

"oh right. sure. good night. sorry to bother you with my love life." Lara said sincerely.

"it's ok. what are imaginary friends for?"

with that, Lara put down her phone and lay herself on her bed and she watched the ceiling and cried herself to sleep, again.

p.s: exactly