stars

i love looking up at the stars. looking at them makes me happy. they make me happy some how. the most beautiful i've seen them was when i was in form 2 and i was in this nature camp with my then best friend. the camp was at a forest reserve in Kuching and there were no city lights to blind the stars above. i remember just looking up and admiring those seemingly randomly arranged clusters of stars and those were the brightest i've seen of them in my life. i was awestruck by their beauty. it's hard to picture that they are actually billions of light years away from us and it seemed at that time when i was looking at them, they felt so near and close. i felt like picking one and putting it in my pocket.  

the night sky in Kuching is the most beautiful i must say. just the other night i felt like the whole city was brightened up by those litter of stars. tonight is no exception. there's a moon accompanying those balls of gas and the sky, though black and dark, is now bright because of the moon and stars' presence. 

i love looking at the stars. they calm me down. they make me feel like there's something better out there; whatever that something may be. they make me feel significant and insignificant at the same time; significant because i am admiring their beauty from afar and insignificant because there are billions and billions of them in the galaxy-gigantic balls of gas and here i am a speck of microscopic dust of a human on Earth, gazing at them for their beauty.

whenever i feel like i'm going crazy or there's no one i could turn to, i look up at the stars at night and i talk to them somehow, sometimes in whispers, sometimes in shouts, sometimes as if i'm talking to a stranger or sometimes as if i'm talking to a person who truly understands how i feel. though they're not always there, in the sky at night, but whenever they are, i take my time smiling, gazing at them, wondering about them, thinking bout them, making wishes, or sometimes silently admiring them. 

wherever i may be, those stars sometimes they will follow me and they're like clusters of companions to me. i know, when i need some reassurance of magical and divine proportions, the stars will be there to guide me. i love the stars. i love them to bits; because like family and friends, i know they will be there somehow when i need them.

p.s: did i tell you i love looking at stars?