you are not alone.

do you ever feel like a plastic bag drifting through the wind wanting to start again? asked katy perry in her song fireworks.

honest to God i've never felt like a plastic bag before. not now, not ever. i don't feel like i'm a plastic bag. plastic bags are useful. very. though they kinda destroy the environment because of their inability to be biodegradable but that's not their fault.

even plastic bags have their functions.

my real question is, have you ever felt alone even when you're surrounded by gazillions of people? even when you smile and laugh and be happy but you still feel as if there's this one part in you that's decomposing and becoming poison in your brain and this poison is stuck within you until one day, one day when you are really ready, it will be cured?

ready for what you say?

ready to let go. ready to let go of everything that has ever happened. letting go of those what ifs and what could've been questions and just get on with one's freakin life. easier said than done. you're at this phase, this stage of your life whereby you feel sensitive with just about anything.

you become so analytical that almost all simple things become complicated. life sucks at this phase. you feel as if you're the worst person in the world, feeling miserable and lonely whereas millions of other people feel the same way. but do you have the right to feel that way? yes of course you do. it's your freakin life!

we all go through this stage. this stage that's not really moving on. we are walking but we are dragging things we don't really need along the way. so maybe it is time to let go of those things that has been dragging you all this while and find some new and probably nicer things along the journey.

p.s: please be positive. we live only once.