where i am.

hey you. yeah you. could i steal a moment of your time. just a bit, please? there's this important thing i have to tell you. come sit here, next to me. cold, isn't it? want my sweater? no? o.k.

look, i know things between us will never be the same again after this but it can be worked out, it can. i just want to tell you whatever happens between us, i will try my best to be there for you. i still do care about you, and i still love you. please, don't roll your eyes. i know i've hurt you many, many times, and i'm sorry that i did all those horrible things to you. i was, am an idiot. you're angry and disappointed, but mostly angry. now i guess you're satisfied that everything i did to you, you're doing them to me? yeah, bitter and painful it is. it is. but it must've hurt you more, i understand. i totally deserve this, i totally do.

look, you, look at me please? no matter what happens, i still want to be there for you, i still want to be friends with you, and... and i want to try to make you happy again. no? not a chance? o.k. i've made mistakes and i am regretting them. i hope you'll forgive me, even if it's not now, but in time, in time. i wasn't at my best behaviour when we were together, but i will be if you want to give me that chance. no? o.k. you've moved on? good for you. found someone else? that fast? oh yeah, o.k.

i need the time still though. i remember things. i do. you don't want to remember them? you've deleted them? oh o.k. i guess, o.k. i don't know what to say, then. whatever it takes to push me away huh? to just kill those emotions right? i understand that perfectly. you've to do what you've to do. you're heading home? i'm not finished yet. don't make that face. frankly speaking i don't think i'm able to move on just yet. i need time to just, i don't know. recover? yeah, recover.

am i done? yeah i think so. i just want you to know, i'm here for you. really, i am. i wanna make it up to you for everything i've been lacking. yeah, making that face again. o.k then. i can't force you or anything. just, take good care of yourself. take care.

i sayang you.

p.s: Shakespeare's sonnets